Feeling bored! have nothing to do right now as i have to keep awake till the return of my husband from work.

I always want to catch up with my blogs and be regular with it but some how turning on my laptop just to do this make me lazy and I find myself occupied with something else.

I have always wished to pen down my feelings and day to day activities on a diary but at the same time i also want it to be personal so that i could shed all my inhibitions in it. Writing blogs is the latest trend and has replaced diaries but at the same time have also made one vulnerable and has to some extent disturbed the privacy of one's life.

The advantage which it has over a diary is that you don't fear of getting out of paper and it is more accessible and above all can be referenced from anywhere and at any time through out the world.

I went to meet one friend of mine today who has this regular habit of writing diaries and pouring out her emotions in it as she has less people to talk to around her and by doing this she gets immense solace.
I too have poured down my feelings on paper on mostly hard and harsh occasions and I can very well understand how much it helps you when there is no one beside you to comfort. It acts as your best friend and comforter when you are looking for a reliable shoulder to lean on.

There is always so much going on within us that we want to share or talk about but the fear of being misunderstood or not understood restrain all of us from discussing it. Moreover people are too busy these days with their own daily chores that they are least bothered to give an ear to someone else's story.

ok so from today i will try to write down about my daily chores, InshaAllah!

FEAR OF LOOSING LIFE.

I spent my days in fear of doom.

Not Knowing that fear will not swipe that away.

I feared about death

but death is bound to all!

I look upon others with keen eyes,

Envying their joy and smile.

Poor me! If only I could accept that all of us

has to walk through the same mile.

Come on, Come on, Come on.

O Angel! Come and show me the way.

Where sky is blue and the grass is green,

Where smile is everlasting and sorrows are at bay.

I searched for you everywhere

Thus making my hair go gray.

I look behind and repent.

Ah! only if I could have lived that way.

Now I am just like those of my age.

I lived my years like a refuge

The memory of which can never elude.

I bothered people by my fear

with cry and hue and dropping tear.

They all supported me and were by my side.

I look behind with gratitude for helping me overcome the tide.

The most encouraging word for me now is" Accept".

Accept, accept it, accept it wholeheartedly.

Accept what comes your way.

Good or bad in the same way.

Keep steady all your emotions and believe in Allah ( SWT ) your Lord.

He will surely answer all your supplications in various denominations.

What you dont get here, You will get it in the hereafter.

"Trust" and " Patience" is the word to treasure for ever and ever.

LIFE.

 Sometimes UP, sometimes Down, Sometimes ecstatic, Sometimes mournful, Sometimes adventurous, Sometimes Boring, Sometimes Lively, Sometimes Lonely,Time never remains stagnant and is always volatile but to maintain your tranquility in all occaions is the actual attainment and victory which indeed is not an easy task.

At the Top!

 I dont want to achieve the pinnacle as the only way from there is DOWN!

Being Modest!

MODESTY BREEDS CONTEMPT! I say this coz in the present era you are thrown with contempt if you try to maintain your modesty

Obeying YOU doesn't mean I agree with YOU, its just that I respect YOU and try to make YOU feel good. But to take respect YOU need to GIVE respect otherwise one day the BALANCE is surely gonna break and the OBEDIENT might turn to a REBELLION!